This deserves a happy dance!!!!!
So this is probably temporary. Yesterday I was like 201.4 (?). It's also that time of month. So this is so strange. However when you get in a huge fight with your husband and don't eat dinner I guess you get rewarded on the scale the next day! I'm going out to lunch with a friend today so I expect that this number will jump a bit tomorrow. However I'm super excited to even see this for a moment.
I may have mentioned when I hit Onederland in 2011 I bought myself a ring. It's a 1 carat 5 stone ring that I got from ID Jewelry in NY. They are an approved Pricescope vendor. I ordered it via email and insisted on Pricescope quality stones. It's fantastic! I promised myself I couldn't wear it if I was over 200 lbs. I don't think I've worn it since last April. I usually wear it as a right hand ring, but sometimes just wear it as a solo wedding band. I put it on today to remind me that I'm moving forward on this journey and even if the scale is up tomorrow, I'm going in the right direction. Excuse the crappy cell phone photo.
Yesterday started my road to the KY Derby Half Marathon! I ran 3 miles on the treadmill. Looking at this plan, I'm committed to the Tues, Thurs, Sun runs. Though the days may change. I will get those runs in every week. I did Hal's 15K training plan and ran Tues, Thurs, Sat most of the time and that worked very well I think. This half plan has an optional run on Wed. I can't guarantee I can fit that in every week. But I will try. I actually plan on the 2 miles today. I'm too crabby to go home, so I'll probably ride Eli and then hit the gym for a quick 2 miles. Plus I gotta burn some calories after going out for lunch. I was really dreading running yesterday. I do better when I have a running schedule, but I was rather enjoying the time "off". I was alternating short 2 miles runs with Chalean Extreme and things were going pretty well. However, once I got the run done yesterday I felt great and maybe I'm back in the groove. April will be here before we know it.
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As a recap for anyone that is new, or may really not know, I have hypothyroidism. It sucks. I don't blame my weight issue (now) on my thyroid, but it sure doesn't help. I believe I was diagnosed in college. I remember being so tired. I didn't think too much of it till one day I was at Wal-Mart and I was *so* tired. I had a few items in my hands and I set them down and left. I just drove back to my apartment and . . . I don't remember. lol That feeling of being soooo sooooo tired is stuck in my brain. It sucked. I did gain weight before I was diagnosed. I went to the Dr I'd been going to since I was too old to see my pediatrician. He put me on synthroid and I've been dealing with this ever since. Several years ago however, it seems that synthroid wasn't quite working so well anymore. I gained weight no matter what I did. I reached my heaviest weight ever - 250 lbs. I started researching. I joined Spark People and got in the Thyroid group. I read the book "Stop the Thyroid Madness". I was unhappy with how I was feeling. I went to my Dr armed with all this information and he basically laughed in my face. He told me he knew better than I did. I cried. I was fat. I was depressed. It was affecting all parts of my life. He did bloodwork and I suppose he increased my meds. I don't really remember. I kept on researching and found a Dr in Missouri (probably an hour from my house). She is a naturopathic Dr (practicing under a regular medical Dr as the state of MO requires). She is fantastic and pays attention to symptoms and not just numbers. She also test all aspects of the thyroid (such as T3, reverse T3) instead of simply the TSH. After trying a few things, I ended up liking Erfa Thyroid from Canada. I have to pay for it completely myself but I love it. I feel the best on it and it works for me. I still struggle to lose weight, but I'm not 250 anymore! I worry that at some point things will go whacky again, but I see her regularly for bloodwork and I think that if it does start to go crazy she will be able to get me back on track again quickly.
As I said I do struggle to lose weight and I had the most success by doing HCG. *gasp* It's ok. You can freak out. I know the diet has a bad reputation but it worked for me. I've maintained probably just over half the weight loss (having hips surgery and being laid up didn't help with maintenance) for 2 years. I kind of want to do it again to get over this hurdle. It really changed the shape of my body. I suspect if I finally lose the 20 lbs I'm battling that I may not fit into my favorite jeans anyways. Why? Cause I think the weight will be distributed differently. HCG really targeted the abnormal fat stores (for me it was my hips). If anyone has any HCG questions feel free to ask. I don't think I have the mindset or willpower to go on it any time soon. I start training for my half marathon next week. There's no way I can do that being on HCG. And when the half is done (mid-April) summer will be here and I will be going to ballgames and not want to be restricted. I'm just hoping that maybe I can buckle down during my 12 weeks of training and get some of this weight off.
Speaking of weight, I ate what you saw in that food log I posted yesterday. For dinner I had 2 scrambled eggs with a piece of melted cheese and 3 links of banquet fully cooked turkey sausage. I make my eggs in a pan sprayed with Pam. No butter or oil. I did have fiber one granola bar and package of fiber one fruit snacks after dinner.
I filled out the rest of the food log and it won't all fit on my screen, but here's the bottom half. . . ignore the "goals". I don't know where those came from and haven't figured out how to change them yet. I did Chalean Burn 2 last night before dinner. And I will say the scale rewarded me this morning, so that's a good thing. Fingers crossed that I can continue this cause I'm sore as heck and hoping to make some progress. I want to be in Onderland at the very least.
Let me start by saying I hate really dislike the term "nom nom nom". It's popular though. Today I'm going to talk about food, so I guess it's appropriate.
I decided to go to my fitness pal and track my "normal" work day eating. Might as well lay it out there and see my calories.
I've never been a proponent of the 1200 cal diet for women. I think that's really low and I'm not sure who really eats like that. Maybe people do and I'm just clueless. When I was on the stabilizing phase of HCG I was eating around 1800 cals a day and maintaining my weight.
Generally speaking, M-F I eat the the same breakfast. It's a smoothie made of 1 1/2 cups almond milk, 1 banana, 1 scoop Shakeology and ice. I think this is a appropriate breakfast though my Dr would tell me to eat half a banana because of the sugar. Who eats half a banana? Not me. Once that baby is peeled it's fair game. On the weekend I have the smoothie or eggs (I am a proponent of high protein) and turkey sausage.
M-F lunch is a salad made up of romaine lettuce, 6 oz grilled chicken (again high protein hence the 6 oz), some onions and peppers. My dressing is salsa. Why spend calories on Ranch? Even though I would like to. IF I go out to eat it's usually to Imo's where I get a chef salad and house dressing (so this would be higher in cals of course) or to a BBQ place where I get a salad that is just lettuce, onion and smoked chicken. I use BBQ sauce and a little bit of Ranch as the dressing then. At both places I may eat bread. I try to avoid carbs, but I think that in general a body needs some carbs even if it is from bread. Weekends are kind of different. If I eat the smoothie for breakfast I often have eggs for lunch. During the week I have a serving of Planter's nutrition energy mix to satisfy my "sweet" craving.
Dinner M-F is usually a meat (around 6 oz) and a vegetable (green beans or creamed corn usually). We've pretty much cut out carbs for dinner.
So this all sounds pretty healthy right? Well when I lay out the numbers (minus dinner) it looks like this:
I'm not sure what my thoughts are on this. Clearly my daily routine is pushing 1200 cals leaving not much room for dinner. But where do I cut? What do I remove? I want to be close to or over 100 grams of protein. The carbs could be reduced but they are mainly from fruit. Ahh! I feel like this is just some kind of evil math. I don't know what works for my body. But I'm really frustrated. I don't understand my body. For example I gained weight this morning. Dinner last night was 6 oz of grilled chicken with BBQ sauce and butternut squash risotto from Trader Joe's. As I said we normally don't have carbs at dinner but I saw that at TJ's and wanted to try it. Could that have blown me up? Probably. Why is this so hard? Am I destined to be fat forever? Probably. In reality I would say yes. But why? What am I doing wrong?
So we should talk about working out. My half marathon training starts next week. I'm trying to incorporate the lifting workouts from Chalean Extreme to build muscle. Hopefully making my running more efficient. I started really working out again on Sat Jan 11th. Taking in account that I'm only lightly running till the training starts. Here's what I did:
Jan 11: Chalean Burn 1
Jan 12: 2 mile run
Jan 13: Chalean Burn 2
Jan 14: 2 mile run on treadmill
Jan 15: Chalean Burn 3
Jan 16: Rest (I had a massage!)
Jan 17: 2 mile run on treadmill and 2.5 miles on bike
Jan 18: Chalean Burn 1
Jan 19: 2 mile run
Jan 20: 2 mile run and Chalean Burn 3 (should have been burn 2 but oh well!)
Jan 21: Chalean Burn Intervals (this is a 45 min workout alternating cardio and high reps of light weight - it's pretty challenging)
So. . . I think that's pretty damn good. I mean this is dedication right? And my weight? I keep going up and down the same pound. And I'm pretty damn sick of it!
I don't want to do HCG again, but I'm seriously pondering it. It seems to be the only thing that has ever really worked for me. It's hard as hell but the rewards might be worth it. I really can't decide. But I'm tired of living like this. I really think about what I can eat all the time. I hate it. And when I do eat something I shouldn't, I immediately think about what workout I can do. I'm a "cardio punisher". By that I mean I use cardio as payback for eating something I shouldn't (like cookies yesterday). Do I need to go full paleo? Do I need to try Atkins? What exactly? Cause I'm tired of working this hard to just maintain my weight. And I'm damn tired of hovering just above 200 lbs. I promised myself that I wouldn't get above 200 lbs again. And yet here I am. . . and I want to wear that ring I bought myself for reaching Onederland. But I promised myself I could only wear it if I was in Onderland. So it sits in my jewelry box. :( And I continue to stress about this every day.
