Oh my! I don't know where to begin. I missed 2 Wednesday blogs so let's start there.
4/25/12 - I left for a trip this day and my weight was 180.8 - down 0.8 from the previous Wed.
5/2/2012 - 182.8 (UGH!)
So that brings me to today. I hit my panic weight this morning. That magical number has been 185 for me. The max weight I'd hit this year was 183.6 and I was trying to be ok with that. I knew with running I could gain weight. I read about it all over the internet. I tried to swallow my disappointment and push through. Then Sunday I was at 184.8. WHY? I ran Saturday. I ate well. Or so I thought. I ignored it. Yesterday morning I ran. I did 5 miles. But I implemented the run/walk method. It was so crazy humid here and I wasn't acclimating well. The only way I could make 5 was to walk at some point. So I ran 0.9 miles and walked 0.1. I watched another blogger do this and it was working well for her. So off I went with my RunKeeper app set to alert me of the intervals. I actually ran the last 0.1 cause I was close to home and made myself. :) LOL. I have no idea if this affected my overall pace. The other blogger hasn't noticed it affect hers. My pace was a min slower than normal, but I was running so slow! I mean I really am struggling with this weather. So I couldn't judge what the walking did for me. But I spent over an hour outside in the heat and humidity and I burned at least 800 cals! (I don't remember what my watch told me. I was too happy to be home in the AC to care!).
So I really watched what I ate yesterday. Sure I had some chocolate. But I burned some serious cals. And I didn't have that much. But wow oh wow. The scale was sure unhappy with me this morning.
185.6!!!!!!!!! TIME TO PANIC!
I have no idea why this is. I don't know what to do. I really really really do NOT want to do another round of my diet. But I will if I have to I guess. I need to get a grip on this. Do I need to stop running? I know someone that lost more weight when they didn't work out. But then you are just fat-skinny. I like muscle! I'm really struggling with this today. It's like someone died. I'm just a complete emotional mess! And yes I want to drown my sorrows in fatty foods and chocolate. I need to get a grip. I need you all to smack some sense in me. I have to buckle down. I need to lose weight on my own. Period. Without doing another round of my diet. I need to figure this out with eating right and exercising. I need to stop making excuses. I need to do this! I can do this!
That's this month's spreadsheet. Again the avg is not cumulative - it starts over every month. I guess I need to work on figuring out how I can change that. I have nothing else to say. I'm just staring at the numbers. I need to figure something out. And FAST!