Friday, December 30, 2011

End of 2011

So this was suppose to be a riding blog I suppose. I never really stuck to that. I'm sick of my riding. Last night was horrible. The stress at my barn is just too high. I just don't want to be around some people and I can't let go of the tension when I ride. I can't even connect my horse. I mean there would be no chance at a decent intro level ride. How pathetic is that?

So as we move into 2012 I think I may turn this into a weight loss or weight maintenance blog. Or maybe just a catch all blog. Does a blog really need to have a theme? I guess not.

This past year I lost quite a bit of weight. Most people don't know how I did it. And I'm not 100% sure I'm ready to share that. I am maintaining relatively well. Till the holidays hit. Ouch. I'm 3-4 lbs above where I like to be. My fat % monitor is holding steady. And I've increased the workouts (I'm SORE). So maybe it's not that bad, but I'm stressed about it. Today is a yogurt day to try and correct this. I have another holiday celebration on Sunday. And in just over 2 weeks we leave for Cancun. I'd like to be below my happy weight when we leave. So I can enjoy the food and drinks!

As we move into 2012 I have a lot of goals in mind. More than I've ever had before. Weight loss is at the top. Or at least loss of inches. I'm at the point where I could gain weight due to muscle and toning. Also at the top of the list is being more frugal. That might be really hard for me. I need to save more money. I want a house damn it! So I need to stop spending money so easily. Also I want to make a decision about what to do with my riding. I'm not happy with the status quo. (Why is chrome telling me that is spelled wrong? Google says that is correct.) *shrug* Anyways, one more thing on the immediate to do list is to make an appointment with an orthopedist about my hip. It's been hurting me a lot lately. Let's see if I can at least get that done in January.

I hope everyone has a great New Year's. I don't really celebrate this holiday. It annoys me. And I think I'm more depressed about all these challenging goals I have this year to even think about partying. So I'll probably bring in the New Year in my favorite way - sleeping. Might as well start the New Year out doing what I love. :)

Friday, October 14, 2011

I'm back!

I got my blog back. Whew! It got connected to some temp google account. What a mess. I was going to see if they could just remove the whole thing cause I didn't want it to be hanging in cyber space forever without having access to it. I finally buckled down to see if I could figure it out myself. I did! Yay! :)

Friday, May 6, 2011

To make changes?

I don't know if anyone reads this. I probably don't care. It's just an outlet for my own feelings. I am trying to decide whether to give up my riding hobby. This means however, that I do NOT give up my horse. I think that's where I'm torn. I love Eli. I promised him forever. I don't think he would be happy being retired. Here are my thoughts in terms of my current situation:

1) I could use the money (a lot of money) for another hobby (photography, jewlery. . . )

2) I spend a lot of money and I'm getting nowhere.

3) Because I'm getting nowhere I no longer enjoy riding.

4) I enjoy my lessons, but the riding in between is rarely as good and unfornuately the quality gap seems to be getting wider.

5) I feel like I resent the time this hobby requires to do it well

6) I hate my barn and most of the people in it.

7) I don't really think Eli is happy in any capacity

8) What do I do? Trail ride, retire him, lease him?? I just don't know.

9) If I keep hating it how long do I contiue?

10) If I do continue can I give it my all? Cause if I keep going I would like to show again someday (I think).

So I'm going to try to go full steam ahead until July 4th and make a decision then. In the meantime I'm open to all advice.