Oh man. I had a crappy day yesterday. I ate chocolate at work. I ate a small bag of chips. . . the little tiny bags you can get at Dollar General. They used to be like 4/$1 but I don't think they are anymore. Legitimately they are one serving. Then after having a dispute with my husband, he went to work the fields and I went to McD's.
I got a cheeseburger happy meal with a large soda. There were not enough fries in the happy meal. Wow. They are tiny servings. I should got a regular value meal. lol! I then proceeded to stuff my face with all kinds of chocolate at home after I ate this. I also ate some icing when I decorated a cake that I made. I had a pounding headache from the sugar on top of some crappy sinus headache that I had behind my eye all day. It was fantastic. I was up 0.8 lbs this morning. 183.0 I guess I should be thankful it wasn't any more. But to be honest I could still go up tomorrow. I need to be super good today and I'm really in a mood that isn't conducive to eating well. I pretty much want to eat crap. And I'm not sure why. I don't know what's going on with me. I generally don't really binge like I did yesterday. And I have a goal to reach before Monday. So I'm highly disappointed with myself. I knew I was doing it and I kept shoving food in my face. I have no excuses. I just did it.
So today will be better. I will make it better. That's my goal. I'm not perfect. I never claimed to be. But I've been rocking this lifestyle this year and I don't know what is happening right now. Maybe the stall in my weight loss? Even though I'm really happy with my progress, how I look, how my clothes fit. . . how I feel! I will get back on track. My personal life has been rough and disappointing so maybe that's why. Moving onward and back on track!
I read Runs For Cookies and she talks about binge eating quite a bit. She recently read a book called "Brain Over Binge". I'm pondering getting that book. I totally binged last night. I've never really thought of my eating habits as binging. But what is random eating when you aren't hungry? So last night my husband went hunting. I had been feeling down and out about the scale. That morning I ran 2 miles and did a Chalean Extreme lifting workout. I didn't really eat breakfast and I had my normal breakfast smoothie for lunch. I had to take my cat to the cardiologist for a check up. I got home at 6. I made 2 hole in one eggs for dinner. I wanted the protein from eggs. I do believe my body does better with a high protein diet. I threw away the center bread piece from one of the pieces of bread, to reduce the carbs. I had 3 links of Oscar Meyer Turkey Sausage. Ok, this is all ok. But then I ate a piece of left over bday cake. Then I ate two cups (not measuring cups, but drinking cups) of Quisp Cereal. I ate some fruit snacks. I don't even remember what else. I wasn't hungry. I was craving things. And I just ate. I would say this is binging. I don't do this often, but you know what? Maybe I need to read about this concept. It's probably enough to derail my diet even though I don't do it very often. I feel like my body is stuck though. Often I think I'd do better just dieting and not working out.
For some reason I find decorating cookies to be relaxing. And it's kind of my new hobby. I want to get better at it. I don't really find them terribly tempting to eat cause I want to give them away. Today I brought these to work
I did eat one of the medium size cookies. But I haven't had any more. Hopefully they get scarfed up at work today. But I made Oatmeal Raising & Cookies-n-cream cookies as well. Cookie overload at work!
I'm already planning my next cookie challenge. It's a valentine's cookie and I'm trying to find the cutters at a reasonable price.
