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Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Struggling

Ok. . . so the Blogger interface changed and I can't say I like it.  :(  This is my first post since changing. . . feels strange.

I struggled this week.  Not just with weight, but with running as well.  Friday I got home early and decided to run 5 miles. I always do my 5 mile run on Sunday mornings. . .  I just felt like a slug when I started running.  I had a side stitch that I could not get rid of!  I was going to cut the run short by stopping at my parents' house, but I told myself it didn't matter if I walked, I was doing 5 miles.  So I did.  I walked twice for a total of about 1.5 miles.  The side stitch never really left.  :(  I felt like I weighed 1000 lbs!  It was strange.

Here's the problem. . . once I walk things change for me mentally.  So Sunday morning I went to do the same 5 miles and I FORCED myself to run the whole thing.  It was somewhat of a physical struggle but definitely a mental one.  I made it.  It sucked.   The heat and humidity really increased this weekend so maybe that was part of the problem.  I did 4 miles Monday morning (I was off work) and it was also a struggle, but more of a physical one since it was a different route and I knew it was shorter.  Both days my heart rate was higher than it has been so I knew I was struggling.  I tried to slow down on Monday but I tend to run with negative splits and I never did manage to slow down. I need to work on that.  Next Saturday the 14th is my first official 5K race! YAY! :)  I'm excited.

So let's talk about the weekly number.  (BLAH!)


A new month in my spreadsheet brings new colors!  The avg column is done monthly and not cumulative. . . I'm not an Excel pro, so I wonder if I can make it cumulative.  I like seeing how I do per month though.  But that's why 4/1 brings a higher avg.   I gotta get that back down!

It was our anniversary on Monday.   Saturday night we went to dinner at TGIFridays.  I had steak.  But I'm sure it was loaded with cals.  I had popcorn and soda at the theater. The 1 lb gain was expected.  Oh we saw Mirror Mirror with Julia Roberts. I liked it!  

Monday I ran in the morning and I ate very little cause I knew we were going out to dinner that night.  We also had wedding cake to eat!   We went out for Vietnamese food.   I'm seriously disappointed by the increase Tuesday morning.  It doesn't make sense mathematically.  But it is what it is.   I'm starting to wonder if I will ever get back in the 170's for a whole week.  In a week or two I will be getting measured by my new trainer, so hopefully the inches are down and the weight is just muscle.  But I suspect I'll be holding steady. 

Speaking of wedding cake. . . 


Our cake still tasted AMAZING!   Even a year later. . .


I cannot wait to order a fresh cake from the bakery next year.  They make the most fabulous cake!  The white flavor has a hint of almond extract, which I LOVE!!!

So . . . also on Monday I made cupcakes to bring to work yesterday.  Amazingly enough I didn't eat a single one on Monday.  Like I said I knew we were going to dinner and I knew we had cake.  I never bring something for people that I haven't taste tested but this time I did.  I mean I tasted the batter and the icing just a smidge, but that is not the same as the real thing.


The recipe was rather complicated and everything was made from scratch.  I left one cupcake at home to split with my hubby last night.  I certainly had to at least taste the finished product.  Well curiosity got the best of me at work and I ate a cupcake after lunch.   They were pretty dense and heavy as I find most homemade cakes are.  However, I wanted to look up a comment in the recipe about the cake flour.  So I pulled up the recipe online and that's when I saw. . . . um . . . the nutritional stats.  I'm not sure how I missed that before. . .

Ok so that didn't upload so well. . . 510 cals per cupcake!!!  OMG OMG OMG!   I wanted to gag.  It felt like I had a lead brick in my stomach. I have no idea how many cals I thought there would be, but I would have rather had something else for that amount of cals. . . like chocolate or a slice of pizza.  Holy crap! 

For those that are curious: White Chocolate Truffle Cupcakes

So last night my hubby cut the cupcake in half and I refused.  I had to get a grip on the scale and that worked out fairly well this morning even though I'm up from last Wednesday.  But I'm proud of myself for refusing.  

Today's struggle: Imo's Pizza. I have a lunch date and I should get a chef salad and not pizza.  Can I manage that? 



2 comments:

  1. Did you upgrade on your own or did it automatically upgrade for you? Nothing has changed for me yet.... Should I be worried? ;o)

    Your first race is coming up fast!! Three miles should be a breeze after what you've been doing lately!

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    1. Yeah I did it. On my dashboard it said something about Blogger is changing. . . said I could preview. Well from what I can tell it's not a preview. I don't think I can go back. The dashboard changed and I hate it.

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